I feel for every med student right now... this next test seems to be a really bad horror movie, that just won't end.
Don't have time to write much more, but I hope all the OUWB peeps and especially my hubby, get some sleep this weekend, you are all in my thoughts.
Goodbye for now,
Felicia
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Saturday, January 21, 2012
I'm grumpy...
First of all, I went to a Kickboxing class thursday night! It was great, and I want to thank my friend Janet for going with me! I had such a good time, and got a really good workout. I had no reason to be so scared before and I can't wait to go again.
I'm so grumpy today... I could probably use another exercise class to shake it off. I had such a ridiculous day yesterday and I think i'm still frustrated by it all.
first, I had a flat tire when I got out of work and then my car wouldn't start. I had to call Josh and ask him to come and get me, and call AAA. Once AAA got their they changed my tire and and got my car started, although it didn't need a jump the guy thought it might be my fuel pump... (which we looked up and it may cost around 400). So, we take it to Discount Tire and find we still have a warranty on my tires... BUT, it ended up being my rims. They were so rusted that they are making my tires flat. [ By the way, we did this to Josh's car... 2 months ago!]
Putting money in my car makes me so angry.. we figured it out and between my Mom and I we have put 1100 bucks in my 12 year old Buick this year. ugh!
So after all that chaos, we got on the road to Detroit to pick up our friend brandon from the airport. 3 hours of snowy michigan crap later, we got brandon, got to an applebees and finally were able to enjoy our friends company. [which all grumpiness aside, I am so glad we got to see all of you! Thanks so much for coming!]
So to make up for my bad mood and causing Josh to lose 5 hours or so of study time yesterday I'm making us a very nice dinner. :) Sorry for being moody ;)
ok, no more pity party for myself.
Goodbye for now,
Felicia
***
I'm so grumpy today... I could probably use another exercise class to shake it off. I had such a ridiculous day yesterday and I think i'm still frustrated by it all.
first, I had a flat tire when I got out of work and then my car wouldn't start. I had to call Josh and ask him to come and get me, and call AAA. Once AAA got their they changed my tire and and got my car started, although it didn't need a jump the guy thought it might be my fuel pump... (which we looked up and it may cost around 400). So, we take it to Discount Tire and find we still have a warranty on my tires... BUT, it ended up being my rims. They were so rusted that they are making my tires flat. [ By the way, we did this to Josh's car... 2 months ago!]
Putting money in my car makes me so angry.. we figured it out and between my Mom and I we have put 1100 bucks in my 12 year old Buick this year. ugh!
So after all that chaos, we got on the road to Detroit to pick up our friend brandon from the airport. 3 hours of snowy michigan crap later, we got brandon, got to an applebees and finally were able to enjoy our friends company. [which all grumpiness aside, I am so glad we got to see all of you! Thanks so much for coming!]
So to make up for my bad mood and causing Josh to lose 5 hours or so of study time yesterday I'm making us a very nice dinner. :) Sorry for being moody ;)
ok, no more pity party for myself.
Goodbye for now,
Felicia
Thursday, January 19, 2012
working out and losing weight... ugh
Last night I went to the Oakland Gym for a zumba class....
I was terrified.
1. I hate going to gyms- I feel like everyone stops and stares at me, and thinks "she's not in shape why is she here?"
2. I was going to a class... which I've never done before.
3. it was 6:30pm and it was absolutely packed! Everyone and their grandma was at the gym... [holy social anxiety!]
4. Once I finally got a parking spot, got into the building, and found the classroom... it was cancelled.
5. I almost went down to the gym to work out, but got scared and left.
so... at least I made it into the building.
My Goal this week is to do a 3 classes. I can do it... just have to get over it and realize no one cares or even notices me.
goodbye for now,
Felicia
I was terrified.
1. I hate going to gyms- I feel like everyone stops and stares at me, and thinks "she's not in shape why is she here?"
2. I was going to a class... which I've never done before.
3. it was 6:30pm and it was absolutely packed! Everyone and their grandma was at the gym... [holy social anxiety!]
4. Once I finally got a parking spot, got into the building, and found the classroom... it was cancelled.
5. I almost went down to the gym to work out, but got scared and left.
so... at least I made it into the building.
My Goal this week is to do a 3 classes. I can do it... just have to get over it and realize no one cares or even notices me.
goodbye for now,
Felicia
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Work vs. School
Work.
The other day I figured out that I have had 14 different jobs in the last 7 years... I would show you a list, but I'll spare you the boring details.
School.
Since first grade I can remember feeling behind and stressed about the whole school experience. I felt so alone and frustrated that most of the time I would just act out, or give up. I figured, I won't get an A or even a C, so why bother. That was my mentality for most of my school career and unfortunately through out my 3 years in college.
College was a mess. I couldn't focus on anything, When I did study... I got nothing out of it. I cared more about doing crazy things with my friends than about school. And eventually I gave up and stopped wasting my money on failed classes.
I finally came to terms with a lot of my school drama about a year ago. I would blame everything on my ADD, living situations, working through out school and then I finally stopped and blamed myself. I was the one who wasn't putting in the time or asking for help, it was me all along.
Work.
Because of all my school drama I've always found comfort in working. I was good at whatever my job was at the time and I was able to connect with people right away. I never connected with school, so I felt like I always learned so much more on the job.
School.
It's been 2 years this past December since I've been out of school. I remember the night that I decided to quit like it was yesterday. I was sitting on the couch with my former roomie, Alicia, looking at my grades for the semester. I had failed Anatomy... again, for the 2nd time. I just sat there and cried and felt completely hopeless.
I told Josh not long ago that "If, I could just start all over I would go to school for nursing"... well, I got to thinking and realized... why can't I start all over? I've done lots and lots of research on schools, programs and certificates. I've decided to start small and pace myself. I realize that school will never come easy to me and that maybe a 4 year education from a university may never be in my life story... but, if there is something that I want to do, I have to try.
I started small and received my CNA in September of 2011, although I enjoy the work that I do, I know I can do more. I started looking into other programs and the next step that I am currently enrolled in and will be starting this monday is, Phlebotomy. I am excited to beging that training and hopefully in the next month or so I will be able to call myself a Phlebotomist.
--I am so thankful that my Mr. Education husband understands the battles that I've had to over come and deal with. I hope one day I feel settled and accomplished in a career no matter what it is.
Goodbye for now.
Felicia
The other day I figured out that I have had 14 different jobs in the last 7 years... I would show you a list, but I'll spare you the boring details.
School.
Since first grade I can remember feeling behind and stressed about the whole school experience. I felt so alone and frustrated that most of the time I would just act out, or give up. I figured, I won't get an A or even a C, so why bother. That was my mentality for most of my school career and unfortunately through out my 3 years in college.
College was a mess. I couldn't focus on anything, When I did study... I got nothing out of it. I cared more about doing crazy things with my friends than about school. And eventually I gave up and stopped wasting my money on failed classes.
I finally came to terms with a lot of my school drama about a year ago. I would blame everything on my ADD, living situations, working through out school and then I finally stopped and blamed myself. I was the one who wasn't putting in the time or asking for help, it was me all along.
Work.
Because of all my school drama I've always found comfort in working. I was good at whatever my job was at the time and I was able to connect with people right away. I never connected with school, so I felt like I always learned so much more on the job.
School.
It's been 2 years this past December since I've been out of school. I remember the night that I decided to quit like it was yesterday. I was sitting on the couch with my former roomie, Alicia, looking at my grades for the semester. I had failed Anatomy... again, for the 2nd time. I just sat there and cried and felt completely hopeless.
I told Josh not long ago that "If, I could just start all over I would go to school for nursing"... well, I got to thinking and realized... why can't I start all over? I've done lots and lots of research on schools, programs and certificates. I've decided to start small and pace myself. I realize that school will never come easy to me and that maybe a 4 year education from a university may never be in my life story... but, if there is something that I want to do, I have to try.
I started small and received my CNA in September of 2011, although I enjoy the work that I do, I know I can do more. I started looking into other programs and the next step that I am currently enrolled in and will be starting this monday is, Phlebotomy. I am excited to beging that training and hopefully in the next month or so I will be able to call myself a Phlebotomist.
--I am so thankful that my Mr. Education husband understands the battles that I've had to over come and deal with. I hope one day I feel settled and accomplished in a career no matter what it is.
Goodbye for now.
Felicia
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Resolution Time
I'm a sucker for all that new years resolution stuff, It's such a refreshing feeling to know that you have a clean slate, a new year and hopefully a better "you". I don't think I have ever followed through the entire year on a resolution, but sometimes its just having a new attitude about things that can make a huge difference.
My Resolutions are:
1. Lose weight and more importantly get healthier.
2. Start a "line a day Journal" (Where you right a line, a sentence or a thought about each day for the year) - so far, I've done it everyday!
3. Try a new recipe every week.
4. Blog 3-4 times a week.
And
5. Find a hobby and stick with it. (I may try knitting very soon!) Thanks Amanda!
Wish me luck, and I'll keep you updated on my progress with each resolution :)
Goodbye for now,
Felicia
p.s. The med students dilated their eyes today... Josh's eye is freaking me out.
My Resolutions are:
1. Lose weight and more importantly get healthier.
2. Start a "line a day Journal" (Where you right a line, a sentence or a thought about each day for the year) - so far, I've done it everyday!
3. Try a new recipe every week.
4. Blog 3-4 times a week.
And
5. Find a hobby and stick with it. (I may try knitting very soon!) Thanks Amanda!
Wish me luck, and I'll keep you updated on my progress with each resolution :)
Goodbye for now,
Felicia
p.s. The med students dilated their eyes today... Josh's eye is freaking me out.
Monday, January 9, 2012
I'm Back!
Apparently I took a christmas break from blogging.
So, lets recap!
It seems like a lot has happened over the last month... or seven. Sometimes I have a hard time putting things down in writing because it either doesn't feel like i've captured it or I just don't know how to say it, so I don't say it at all. But, I would like to change that. After all, I started this blog to write about our journey, and that is what I am going to do.
I am hoping to open up more about our day to day life, even the bad stuff. I tend to hold back sometimes on those rough days, because I hate saying something negative about school, married life, work etc. But thats life, somedays suck, and somedays are really good. I need to learn to cope and express what is going on so I don't explode and take it all out on the guy who has 40 credits. Oh yeah, did I mention OUWB has 40 credits this semester... y a y.
The last seven months have taught me a lot of about myself and about life. Heres a quick list :)
I've learned that;
1. Getting married, moving, settling into a new home, and being with my husband is the best feeling and decision i have ever made.
2. Being away from family is still hard, but its nice to have them just a drive away.
3. Med school is very scary. I sometimes feel like a awkward outsider who didn't finish college and shouldn't be apart of their gang. But other days, I think they are the nicest and most down-to-earth party filled [nerds] I have ever met. thats right, you are all nerds :)
4. That you MUST be flexible. MUST. BE. FLEXIBLE.
5. Moving to a new area and trying to make new friends, sucks.
6. Coming in second to med school is only for the time being, its not forever and its not their first choice.
7. Having dinner in my car outside the med school library for 20 mins is completely normal.
8. If on tough days, I cry, and take a deep breath and organize a closet.... everything will be alright.
--I'm sure I could go on and on but lets move onto the next subject.
CHRISTMAS BREAK was Amazing! Nearly an entire month of no books, no lectures, no late night library dates, and no med school. I unfortunately worked most of his break but I was home every day by 2:45pm and was able to have every evening with my man. We are so blessed to be able to have spent time with family, friends, and each other. I know Josh got a very well deserved and restful break, which is all I wanted for him and us.
It is now 10:07, and I should be getting to bed... 5am is not a nice hour.
Goodbye for now,
Felicia
What to look forward to next;
-New years resolutions!
-Lets complain about work!
and
-Help me find hobbies!
So, lets recap!
It seems like a lot has happened over the last month... or seven. Sometimes I have a hard time putting things down in writing because it either doesn't feel like i've captured it or I just don't know how to say it, so I don't say it at all. But, I would like to change that. After all, I started this blog to write about our journey, and that is what I am going to do.
I am hoping to open up more about our day to day life, even the bad stuff. I tend to hold back sometimes on those rough days, because I hate saying something negative about school, married life, work etc. But thats life, somedays suck, and somedays are really good. I need to learn to cope and express what is going on so I don't explode and take it all out on the guy who has 40 credits. Oh yeah, did I mention OUWB has 40 credits this semester... y a y.
The last seven months have taught me a lot of about myself and about life. Heres a quick list :)
I've learned that;
1. Getting married, moving, settling into a new home, and being with my husband is the best feeling and decision i have ever made.
2. Being away from family is still hard, but its nice to have them just a drive away.
3. Med school is very scary. I sometimes feel like a awkward outsider who didn't finish college and shouldn't be apart of their gang. But other days, I think they are the nicest and most down-to-earth party filled [nerds] I have ever met. thats right, you are all nerds :)
4. That you MUST be flexible. MUST. BE. FLEXIBLE.
5. Moving to a new area and trying to make new friends, sucks.
6. Coming in second to med school is only for the time being, its not forever and its not their first choice.
7. Having dinner in my car outside the med school library for 20 mins is completely normal.
8. If on tough days, I cry, and take a deep breath and organize a closet.... everything will be alright.
--I'm sure I could go on and on but lets move onto the next subject.
CHRISTMAS BREAK was Amazing! Nearly an entire month of no books, no lectures, no late night library dates, and no med school. I unfortunately worked most of his break but I was home every day by 2:45pm and was able to have every evening with my man. We are so blessed to be able to have spent time with family, friends, and each other. I know Josh got a very well deserved and restful break, which is all I wanted for him and us.
It is now 10:07, and I should be getting to bed... 5am is not a nice hour.
Goodbye for now,
Felicia
What to look forward to next;
-New years resolutions!
-Lets complain about work!
and
-Help me find hobbies!
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